Day Twenty Six

Felt like have drifted apart from friends! Everybody's been so 'slient' these days! Wouldnt even reply a hi msg! Most did not wish my Happy Birthday this yr~! Wat is their fucking problem! I can swear I did treat them well ( at least 70% of the time) Wish could cook them for Christmas! Even those closest bloodi irritate me with their fucking attitude! Friends social circle in bad situation now, bad for self! Might as well be isolated! Better off in my own insane world!

Honestly any one out there tat is at least a good friend!?
Maybe is juz my god damn fault! Nobody wanna be friends with me! Might as well die!
Dont see a reason not to leave this earth sooner, aniway! Global warming, war, inhuman physcos awalking all around, money major treat to life! un happening life, boring life... stupid me! and stupid family! nothing worth living for! Not even my dreams which r so unrealistic that it will never come true! DUHz!~ Dont need a life span of 60yrs! Give me 30 and will be glad! No need suffer any longer!
Ijuz hate this place! How i wish am born into family running a farm business in Aussie or Canada or England or States! I guess by then will have a simple life, and more natural loving!

Juz f * * * ........